24 February 2010

Lent: Week 1

With my clients I use the idea of adding in balancing foods to crowd out the desire for unbalancing foods. I have found it to work remarkably well in my own life--the more whole foods I eat, the more I crave.

I've been thinking about this same idea--adding in to crowd out--as it relates to my spirituality. For Lent this year I'm adding in a new discipline--fasting from food. I've never done this before, so I set pretty attainable limits for myself. I'm eliminating one meal a week with the intention of crowding out my constant, obsessive thoughts about food.

I think we have overcomplicated what we should eat to the point that people are paralyzed, and I'm feeling a little of that creep into my own life. By adding in this new discipline, I hope to crowd out my anxiety around what I should/shouldn't be eating and tune-in to my own intuition about the best choices for me.

I wonder what adding in this discipline will leave me craving?

04 February 2010

Stale

My sister works in a bakery and sometimes brings home the almost stale leftovers--muffins, bagels, and occasionally a sweet treat. It's nice to have something almost fresh-baked without the mess to clean up.

I'm feeling like my relationship with the church is getting a little stale. Maybe what it is is that I don't have a community of spiritual support around me that I can tap into regularly. I'm the loan bagel among a dozen blueberry muffins. It's isolating to have an intense spiritual encounter or to be on a certain path towards Divine understanding and connection and feel like no one else gets it. It leaves me feeling tired and alone.

I really identified with how Yearning Minds and Burning Hearts brought to light Jesus' similar situation--alone and misunderstood, even by those closest to him. As if Jesus was a nice 3-seed loaf in the midst of a sea of unleavened bread. Somehow, that's normalizing--to know that God actually experienced isolation, too. While living with his "friends", Jesus realized they just didn't get it. What a frustrating place to be.

I'm heading back to Academy next week. It will be nice to have a break from the stale muffins surrounding me and to be among fresh-baked bagels. I just hope someone remembers the cream cheese.